Between The Lines Of Life

I know I'm not alone when I say that many times I feel alone even when I'm not actually alone. But still it feels like I'm all alone in this feeling that I'm all alone even though I'm surrounded by people who know and love me. In fact sometimes I may even go as far as to think that no one truly cares about me at all. Then I remember all those who truly do care about me and who I truly care about and that makes all the difference. They ground me, don't let me wash away on waves of emotions. They protect me from the torrents while at the same time I protect them as best as I can. Family may be the ones who will be there through it all no matter what, the ones who will always be there for you, but friends choose to stand by you no matter what. Just like family you don't choose and friends are the family you choose. I guess this was my way of working through my thoughts and reasoning with myself. But in some way I hope it helps other's who feel the way I f...

You know that feeling at the end of a good book or movie? The feeling that everything is right in this world and nothing could change that? I get it everytime I watch a good movie or read a good book. That's why I love reading so much, and now I've finally figured out that's why I want to write and edit. I want to give that feeling to other people around the world. I want to provide that feeling to everyone who comes in contact with my work. I would finally feel complete giving that feeling to others. Of course it would be amazing if I were to find someone who gave me the same feelings in real life, outside the realms of fantasy and movies. I figure I can hold off on that for a few more years though and just enjoy being young and single. Tha happy ending is what I strive for in my life and what I want to give all my characters and continue experiencing everytime I read a new book or watch a new movie. The happy ending is why I live and my purpose in life. Love, ThunderSong

So I got accepted to BYU-Idaho which is like everything I could have wanted in my wildest dreams! My biggest dream has always been to go to BYU-I like both of my parents! What’s awesome is that my friend Katie and my best friend’s sister Linds have both been accepted too! I really hope we all at least get Fall Term together so we can hang out at Orientation! Anyway I’ll be sharing an apartment with Linds’ older sister and other girls who are assigned to the same apartment! I can’t wait!!!! Eeeeeeekkk!!!! *Squeal!!!* Just gotta wait patiently for the Track information which should come in the mail sometime in the next 3-5 weeks! I’m not patient but there’s nothing I can do anyway so I might as well wait. I’m also waiting to hear back about a scholarship for school as well. I’m hoping I get it and that it pays everything my pell won’t be able to cover because otherwise I won’t be able to afford college without a loan or two. Anyway I should go just needed to let you all know! Tons excit...

So school is back in session for me, and I'm loving my new classes! I'm taking Astronomy, Math, English, and American History Pt. 2 this semester. I have great teachers so far and my books are all really interesting. I need to read chapter 1 in both my textbooks (history, and astronomy), my other two classes are online. Anyway I thought I'd just get on really fast and update anyone who might be reading this on my life. So yeah I turned in my byu-i and byu applications and I'm expected an email from both within the next 3-5 weeks now. I'm looking forward to being able to let people know if I'm definitely going to byu-i or byu! I've also been working on a story which my best friend and I came up with when we were in high school. We tried to work on it before but since it starts with my character and I was having writer's block for a long time I'm just barely starting it. We've been doing a lot of brainstorming together though so maybe we'll f...

Okay, so I've been trying to get myself to sit down everyday and at least write 2k a day. But I've been having some problems with that. For one, there is writer's block. I keep getting blocked and need to find a way to open up my creativity box (no idea what anyone else calls it, but I like to think of it in terms of a box full of ideas and characters which I can use for my writing, if only I can open it). Any ideas on that would be quite helpful. Also another problem is that I can't find a good place to write. I sleep in the living room which is pretty loud. Anyway, any ideas on what I can do to make it easier on me to write, maybe even enjoyable. Also any ideas on how to force myself to write everyday. My goal is 2k a day, everyday this year. I'm not going to make that, since I haven't even start, but maybe if I could make it everyday from here till the end of the year. And if anyone has any ideas on what I could write that would also be terrific. I have tons...

Childhood dreams. Who hasn't had one? No one that I know. Recently I've been thinking about my biggest childhood dream. I always wanted to be 16, so that I could start dating and find the right guy and be married between 19 and 20. Mostly I wanted this because I wanted to have someone to take care of me like in all the stories. I just kinda figured this is the way life is meant to be. Apparently not for me though. I am now 19, and I've only been on one date, because I asked the guy. So it certainly doesn't look my dream will be coming true. But surprisingly I'm not as opposed to this idea as I thought I would be. I need time to figure out who I am in life and college is one place where I can. I'm almost finished with applying to BYU-I and I really hope I get in. If I do then I can see what its like to live on my own without any parental figures making me do chores. See what its like to be my own person and find out who the heck I am. Let this be a fresh chapter ...

So I kinda started my futuristic bootcamp story but I'm having writer's block a lot lately, so I haven't written much. I also started this story for my youngest brother about five siblings who are also witches and that went okay for a while but again I got writer's block. So right now, I have about five or six on-going works in progress: Altered Veggies (working title), Futuristic Novel (Bootcamp, again working title), In The Trees (request from a friend), Paz's Story (five sibling witches, Paz is the oldest), Rose and Briar Carter (kind of a wrong choices and the consequences kinda deal), Slayer (obvious, I absolutely love Buffy!), and Vegas Magick (another request from a different friend.) If anyone has any ideas I'm willing to hear them, just leave them in the comments. Anyway, I really need to get back to writing. So Hobey Ho Let's Go! Hugs, C. Wolfe