How Dare I...

By Claire Enos

Pretty soon, I will be traveling to Mexico and Belize with some students and teachers from my school. This has been a dream of mine for years: to travel to places I've never been before! And I love learning about new cultures. Like many people, I have a list of things I want to do with my life, visiting Mexico is just one of the many things on that list. It feels so good knowing that soon it will be one I can cross off, and an experience I can add to my list of experiences.

So, the other day I got to thinking, and decided that I needed a separate list of things to do in my life in case some of the things on the first list don't happen: like getting married and having kids, at least for now. So, my new list is as follows:


  • Graduate with my Bachelor's Degree in Creative Writing from BYU-Idaho
  • Pay off my loans and save up money for a Master's Degree
  • Graduate with a Master's Degree in Theological and Cultural Anthropology, preferably from Eastern University
  • Pay off any lingering loans from Master's Degree
  • Start a career I can see myself doing for years to come, that I enjoy
  • Make plans to travel, a lot!
  • Buy a house of my own
  • Write a book and publish it

For me, it's hard to see myself succeeding at anything, especially my biggest dreams, because I don't see myself as the type of person that has what it takes to work hard, especially if I don't love what I'm doing. I am incredibly unsure of my own abilities and let it hamper my self-confidence so that I don't try anything I might fail at, or rather: succeed. I don't succeed because I don't try, and I don't try because I'm afraid of failing: I'm afraid I'm not good enough. Not now, I am tired of not taking risks. I will go after my dreams, and I will achieve them, whether it takes ten years or twenty, and I WILL prove to myself and to everyone else that I have what it takes to make it in this world. I will be at the top of my world.

We are all Sons and Daughters of our Heavenly Father. How dare we believe we aren't good enough? How dare we not shoot for our most far-fetched dreams? How dare we achieve anything less than our potential? How dare we...

<3Claire

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  1. UnknownFebruary 2, 2014 at 1:49 AM

    The number one thing that tells someone they are not good enough is actually those around them. If you really want to succeed, surround yourself withbpeople who will support you, even when they disagree. Then when things go bad they will help you up. If ever someone tells you that you can not do something, tell them the only thing you can't do is let them continue to put you down. Telling someone they can't do something is like telling them they are not good enough.

    I have known you long enough to know if you want something, you are strong enough to get it .

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