24 And Feeling Good

By Claire Enos

I love birthdays. I love everything about them! I love turning a new age, I love the newness of it all. And I love the fact that my birthday is a day that's all about me. But, this year I turned 24. That's a big number. Especially for someone who is still in college, and not even dating anyone.

So, today for my English Writing Seminar I read a short story by Sherwood Anderson called "Sophistication". The quote that stuck out to me follows:
"With all his heart he wants to come close to some other human, touch someone with his hands, be touched by the hand of another. If he prefers that the other be a woman, that is because he believes that a woman will be gentle, that she will understand. He wants, most of all, understanding."
This stuck out to me because it somehow struck home in my heart. It touched on a part of my soul. I can wait, I'm patient, but what I'm searching for most of all is someone to understand me. Someone who will listen to me when I'm feeling sad or upset. Someone who is always there for me.

Which is why, my resolution this year is to not hold onto what does not want to be held onto. That means if a guy doesn't appear to want to be with me or hang out with me then I will move on and find someone who does want to talk to me and spend time with me. It's as simple as that. This is year to grow up and figure out who I want to be and where I belong. This is the year that I will graduate with my Bachelor's degree and (hopefully) find a job and move out on my own as a real adult. I won't be held back.

So, watch out world! Here I come!

<3Claire

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