A Big Thank You!

I started this blog a few years ago to write up my feelings and thoughts on life. Lately I haven't really used it for my feelings or my thoughts or anything. I'm going to try starting that up again, so here goes:

I'm a normal girl. I don't know who I am, or where I'm going, except what I've been told. I do know that 2+2=4 (don't ask me why, I don't understand that much) and I do know that the stars we see at night most likely have already died, so essentially we are seeing into the past when we look up into the universe. But that's not much, I know that. And it is our duty to learn as much as possible in this life down here on Earth.

Life is hard. Everyone knows that. There are some people who seem to have mastered the art of living ("seem" being the operative term here), and there are others (like me) who barely know how to take one step at a time and somehow seem to mess everything up without thinking (because they aren't thinking). One thing that gets me through the tough times is knowing that I have family and friends who care about me, despite all my flaws. Then there are those days when even knowing that doesn't seem to be enough and I just want to break down and cry.

Luckily I have family and friends who don't let me forget that I'm loved. If I ever utter even a word that sounds depressed they straighten me right out. I am loved whether or not I like it (I love it). My cousins (current and soon-to-be), aunts, uncles, mom, dad, sisters, brothers, and friends all love me. If not for them, I probably would have left this world long ago, because I wouldn't have been able to handle it.

You know what else is amazing about my life? My church. If not for the church I wouldn't be where I am right now. I wouldn't be sitting here writing this blog or thinking about how amazing my life is, even though it hurts.

So, from me to you: THANK YOU for being there for me. If not for you, I wouldn't be here. And if I weren't here, I don't know where I would be. I may not know who I am or where I'm going, but I have the love of many and I will keep going.

<3Claire

OH! And for all you Mormons out there: Happy Pioneer Day!!! <3

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